When I look at the stars

I see someone else

Patterns & how they change the visable world

Is there a reason why the rain only falls on your head
It just doesn't seem right at all

Even the mighty sky can't fill the space you left behind

So I just visited my little brother for the last time, seeing him again was so sad, his face so pale. I'll make him proud, proud to have me as an older brother

Psychology IS AWESOME

Don't drink Fiji water if you care about the envirement, real talk

Grief

I havent't felt sadness for the longest time, it just hit me. I don't really care about anything anymore. I gotta stay strong though, my little brother wouldn't want to see me like this so for him I'll keep my head up.

Speachless

Dad came in my room and told me there was some bad news, i was curious what it was cause he's never approached me like this. So I found out my step father took the family to vegas and got in a car accident, My step dad had minor injuries, my mom in and out of a coma, Albert (oldest brother) needs surgery, Chris ( middle brother) minor injuries. Andres (youngest brother) dead, Grandma and Grampa dead. JEEZ wth I told my mom to make them wear their seatbelts man wth.

On the brighter side, I just got back home from camping and it was AWESOME!, Its funny how you think when you first meet someone, you'll probably never see them again, and then you end up going camping with them haha. I found some sand dollars!! they look so awesome. Thank you Bryan, Johnathan, Joseph, Danielle, Mary, David.

Oh man I can't believe my little brother is dead, at age 6.... he was my favorite, pray for him please

I'm so glad

to see you as the person you were before, and I'm so glad that she loves me even though I don't deserve it

Isn't life grand

looking at the stars few nights ago reminded me how lucky I am. Life is treating me way too well, i'm lovin it (:.

why am I so lucky? As I was watching the meteor shower, i thought about that question, here's what i got. I'm lucky because I...
1. have somewhere to call home
2. have a dad the will love me to matter what
3. don't have cancer
4. never have to go to bed cold
5. drink clean water whenever I want
6. never have search in the garbage for food
7. am healthy.
8. have such great friends
9. have the opportunity to own a car
10. Have my own room, with a comfortable bed
11. get Free education
12. own clean underwear
13. am content with myself
14. found the joy of music and dance
15. know that God loves everyone

OH yeah

I don't like to wear pants

one thing I don't understand

Why do people set their away message as " don't talk to me" or "im not in the mood to talk", JUST GET YOUR ASS OFF AIM and no one will talk to you (:. Thank you very much

Insanely awesome day

SOO Today, was an insanely awesome day (:, I went biking with the guys. ( ROBINROBINROBINROBIN, Kelvin le, Jon, KEvin, Rudy, KElvin Nguyen, PAUL. we all met up at KElvin's house and began biking at 5:30 ish? BIKING UPHILL IS A B@!#@!#!@, omg the trip was far as I expected, everything was going great until the steep hill came. Everyone was going down about 20 miles an hour, KEvin and Rudy were in the front. This turn came and they crashed into this dirt hill, everyone rushed immediately to see if they were still intact. Rudy got up he looked fine, but i walked over to him and noticed something strange on his knee, he got this deeeeep cut, it looked like it needed stiches. I gave him my shirt to help stop the bleeding and we GTFO and rushed to Jun's house. Luckily, Jun's mom is a nurse so she took care of the wound.

After the pit stop, we went back home, the EASY way hahaha, should have took the easy way in the first place, I don't wanna write anymore so i ll just summarize it, We all got home at 10 ish, and the trip was an estimated 40 miles, INSANE. The scenery was really nice (:. Theres much much more, but i dont wanna write it , if you want to share the experience, tell me and i ll bring you along to the next trip (:

Right here by your side

SOO, I havent blogged in a while, so hmm why not? So, Everything is going swell, I love life (:. I'll start off / end off with some updates haha

1. Summer School is OVER!!, i m glad its over but at the same time, not really. Bittersweet, I ll miss everyone. Thanks again Robin for making the class more fun

2. KEvin M and I switched guitars!!, My electric for his acoustic. OMFG HIS ACOUSTIC IS AWESOME!!!. I've been playing and singing non stop i m getting light headed xD

3. Biking!, I've been biking recently with the guys, its one of the only ways i get excersise now xD

4. I CHOPPED DOWN THE UGLY TREE IN MY BACKYARD!, it took 3 hours X_X

5. My back is in pain, and i don't know from what x_x, but I'm not letting it get me down cause i know it'll get better (:

6. I've been listening to a lot of Talktothewalls (the girl from youtube) she's amazing , you should check her out


hmm thats all i can think of right now, I'm in need of a deep conversation =)

OHH SOO GOOOOOD!!!!!

Okay, so today i pooped, TWO TIMES!.


Thanks Robin for keeping sane in class, i swear my abs are hurting thanks to your jokes xD. HMMM so i haven't blogged in a while, I gotta say, Summer is STILL AWESOME. I have Summer school now, but its not that bad HAHA I like it =D. This Summer, IS THE BEST!!!

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Yosemite

IS AMAZING, That 7 mile hike was killer ,but so worth it, making it to the top of the waterfall was felt so rewarding haha, and swimming in freezing water really sucks the air out of you, Umm I don't wanna write anymore haha

Great America!!

Oh my God, I'm so tired of writing about how Awesome my Summer's , been lets just say Great America was HELLLA FUNN, And the new people I met = AWESOME!! <3

and as for the rest of the week, lets just say I fell asleep with a smile on everynight

Best Day of Summer so far =D

So yesterday at 4 pm, Freaken Bryan comes barging in my room out of nowhere, i m like half naked. Scared the crap out of me, so he invited me to sleep over cause we're going to the beach tomorrow anyways. Went over to his aunt's house. Met Cathy and Julie in person for the first time. Went back to Bryan's house and played some Halo, talked until 2 AM and slept. Woke up at 7, Met Daniel, ate breakfast, half an hour later 10 people stormed in the house. I was instantly greeted by all these strangers and they instantly felt like family.

Went to the beach, played football, it was so fun, my ankles hurted after a while though. Oh yeah and the flour sock game hahaha. Capture the flag using that panty hose thing was fun, something new.

At 2 ish, everyone starts to head to Kevin's house and there' just way too much to say haha.


Things that I remember best

Bryan, Wow from the way you described yourself , you made yourself sound like a horrible dancer haha, but what i saw today amazed me. You just threw yourself out there and had hella fun, that's what it's all about. You have the heart of a dancer and I respect that.

Kevin, your house is AWESOME. It's like a mini mansion haha, your backyard is HUGE, a whole tennis court and it has like every fruit tree I could imagine. And you even have that golf cart thing how cool is that? the View is just Amazing! all I can see are mountains of green.

Johnathan / Phylis, you two are adults, but you act like kids sometimes haha and I think that's awesome. Much Respect

Joseph/Mary/Daniel/Kevin/Bryan, Amazing dancers. Your choreo is so clean i was shocked.

Derrick/ Brian, WTH i didn't expect to see you there , like you guys came out of no where . Jeez the world we live in is so small.

There's so much more, I absolutely love it when you do so much in a single day, I feel so accomplished. I'm so satisfied, so happy

Sun

First blog this month, okay where to start, well today I went to church and i gotta say, I haven't been so bored in so long. I hate it when you're in a dancing mood or a singing mood and you're stuck in church, and all you can do is Sit, Sit, Sit, -_-.

I recently convinced my mom to let my sister stay with me, but now shes making things all complicated. She's been putting words in my sister's mouth making her lie, that's bullshit, it's embarrassing to have a mom like this. I guess I gotta get serious now.

I went to a session last Thursday at Silver Creek, and I gotta say it was Amazing. The people there are so good and they are also so welcoming. It felt like everyone was a whole big family. AND they had food =D. I also got to catch up with one of my long lost friends from church school, funny how we both started dancing at the same time. There were b girls too :O, And a girl surprised me, turns out that her friend showed her a pic of me , new friend Jenny. Meeting everyone made me want to stay, and like transfer schools. I felt this weird kind of carefree feeling, it's not the usual carefree feeling that I usually feel, but it's different and hard to explain, but this new feeling kicks ass . It made me think about my friends back at my school. It's so different now, everyone's too busy with their own thing and i don't even talk to them anymore. Now I don't know who to go to anymore. I m getting tired of my school. Everyone's all stressing over finals ,but I haven't even had a single thought about studying.

hmm besides that what can I say right now, Life's pretty awesome =D.

That's weird, for some reason I have trouble and a whole bunch of crap, but I can still say life is awesome, I don't know why I feel so good when everything is so bad.

My Soldier

Things have been going real good, recently everyone's been happy. I m excited for the choir concert , it's in 30 minutes =D. Today was pretty fun, after school Reggie, Brendan , Kelvin, Vy, Marc, and Reyna came over. Reggie Reyna And I ate a third of a watermelon, it was so satisfying. At 3:30 everyone left except Marc and Reyna, they went to my tutoring place with me, but the lady didn't let them in :l. we we just chilled out back. OKAY Reyna and Marc just woke up We're gonna go to the choir concert now, bye everyone

Mom?

Today was a really fun day, Khoi invited me over. Marc, Kevin Manuel, Rudy, Jun, Kevin Subac, and Paul were there too. It was SO hot today, good thing we had a slip n slide =D, oh and water balloons too. Khoi's mom is such a good cook, I wish my mom could cook that like. Looking at Khoi and his mom today really made me think. Where is my mom? Have I forgotten about her? Thinking about it made me feel bad. Its been over a month since I last visited her, and I didn't think about her on mother's day. Even though she's done me wrong, even though I don't like who she is, despite all that crap she put my dad and I through, she's still my mother. I hope she didn't think that I abandoned her. How long can I hold a grudge for? holding grudges never does anyone any good anyways. I'm going to visit her on friday.


I can't believe this is happening, eversince that day, I've found myself whispering your name in my head every 5 seconds. How could this happen to you? the only one that has never done me wrong, the only one that I can really say that I love without a doubt. The one whom I"ve looked up to for so long. The one who showed me what it felt like to be truely happy. I'm devastated, but for you, I'll be strong.

Stranger, You and I

Hello blog, it's been a while. 3 months? So much to catch up on.

I've been doing good, I've found a new way to deal with my problems, I haven't been down in so long and i hope it stays this way . I don't really remember what I did in the past 3 months. Oh boy, where to start? Hmm many things have happened, I go to this Tutoring place now, it's called Khai tri, I thought it was gonna be boring, but boy I was wrong. The people there are AWESOME. My tutor looked like a lazy ass at first, but I was wrong, he's hella cool, he dances =p. There are other people at my tutoring place too, Johnathan and Anh . They keep me from boredom.

hmm Prom, I originally didn't want to go to prom, but I changed my mind last minute. I asked Sheila to prom with a pinyata, It was actually pretty fun haha. I thought prom was going to be cool, but oh man was I wrong, It was probably the best night I've had this year. It was AWESOME the Food, decorations, people, and music caught me by surprise. My ears are still ringing, but it was so worth it. Seeing everyone all dressed up and having the time of their lives, It was priceless.

Change, there has been MANY changes in the past 3 months. Like every year, the people that were once close don't feel that close anymore, but that's just life, nothing lasts forever. I finally got closer to my old friends, boy have I missed you guys. I finally understand many things I've lacked to understand a while ago.

sigh

today was quite a depressing day, I was so out of it today. School was just shit, Afterschool VSU, some fun but mostly shit. Funny how my gut feelings are always right I hella saw this coming but i'm glad I did. Oh well another experience to learn from I guess? damn Im so stupid, but oh well atleast the worrying is over. Just now found something out.... Shit man Are you fucking kidding me... They can't just take you away. Disappointment Dissapointment Dissapointment. FUCKING SHIT

Go with the flow

Today was quite an interesting day, I've done a lot of thinking today. Thanks to church, I was bored to death and spent the whole hour just letting my mind wander. Thinking about the future, and I realized how clueless I am. don't really know what I want to do after highschool, College for sure, but where? I don't even know what I want to do as my career. Suddenly, I snaped out of it, The kid in front of me was picking his ear, He was hella digging LOLLLL. Noticed how weird I was being, Its not like me to think so far ahead. As for now, I'll just improvise like I always do. Also thought about other stuff. Gotta learn to stop second guessing. Overthinking too much. Worrying isn't my thing.

Weekend has been awesome! but tiring. Yesterday Marc, Rudy, Khoi , Denise, Paul , Tiffany, Stephen And I went ice skating. It was Fun! I only fell twice that day. Afterward, Red Robbins YUMM. Afterwards Sleep over at my house.

VSU HELL WEEK STARTS TOMAROW, GREATTTTTT X_X

My blog isnt quite dead yet

Back From my Blog Hiatus! Jeez has it really been 2 months?



I have an Idea, how bout an update list?

1. To start things off, I m no longer 16! , I gotta admit though being 17 feels no different.
2. Taking a break from b boying, I have gave myself the shin splits :x
3. Started singing along with my guitar
4. Got a haircut, people say it looks funny
5. Went to a retreat over Winter break and it was AWESOMEEEEE

How about a list of random things on my mind?

1. life's like a roller coaster right now, the ride has been going up slowly, now it has suddenly dropped out of no where, and i'm getting a sick feeling in my stomach.
2. Need to start wearing retainers
3. I should seriously start taking my own advice, saw it coming from a mile away, in too deep
4. Jeez, I hope that video doesn't end up on youtube
5. I dont feel like writing anymore Jeez, no wonder I stopped blogging lol

yeah, could have wrote more but, guess not